Response to a letter on the California Superbike Forum:
“I suck”
Oooh, it hurts to see that …
I’ll say
‘Go easy on yourself, Lad’ …
but first a little story:
March 1989
I was a Ranger School reject … I did not pass Go … I flew to Korea.
At Camp Howze, Colonel Hunt grabbed my left shoulder, spun me around, said
“Fkkk … another Tab-less bitch … send him to Echo Company.”
Shame … but walking away, not so much an option.
November 1997
Fired from my job as a factory foreman … my first job after 8 years in the Army
2011 August at NJMP
Like an earnest little chipmunk I said to Cobie
“I want to become an instructor.”
He probably gets that a lot.
2011 October at Willow
Cobie behind me … me pig-slow
I said all voices-in-my-head-like:
“Damn damn damn, why did I ever say I wanted to be an ixr?”
“Why did I out myself … I’m so embarrased”
So, I know … we all know … this feeling … fear and [self-] loathing.
Here’r’ some thoughts, all along the lines of
“Ward, don’t you think you were a little hard on the Beaver last night?”
Taking Your Time
From TW2, Chandler, and I paraphrase loosely:
“You’ve got to get all this stuff right in your head …
no matter how long it takes …
I’ve seen guys that don’t and they don’t make it.”
Scan TW books for these terms:
confidence, devil, doubt, fear, panic, respect, scared, undermine
Commitment
You might consider taking your commitment to this choice of yours to a new level —
not just pointing your Body and Bike in that direction
perhaps turn your Perspective there, too.
Here I offer various wise quotes pertaining to “I suck,” dealing there-with, fighting there-against
Cool Hand Luke:
Po:
Kung Fu, Kwai Chang Cain:
Kung Fu, Panda:
Sensei Zei:
Jacek Bukowski:
St. Augustine:
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